Thursday, July 29, 2004
Another day - Another Slice of Life
Yesterday, I went to a very emotional funeral - the good do die young - our friend sick 10 months with lung cancer - he was 59 - big strapping tri atholon, golfer, meaty, hearty, happy, good hearted, gutte neshama - when I'll go to his grave I'll bring him a prov #1 - he was - played and like the best!! and with his passing to the putting green in the sky - so another little neshama has arrived - I have a bris next thurs - my mah jong buddie's daughter has a baby - 1 up and 1 down !
sometimes with all the faith I have - I question what goes on - who gets the shit - who gets the gold! - who shall live and who shall die - the liturgy is direct, yet harsh. My rabbi just said last week - look how many people come to shul after a loss - they all of a sudden come back - recognize their spirituality - their core essence - the "inner" jew - remember Kaddish is not for the dead - it's for the living - !
We know that hashem does exist because he made wine and beer!
nite nite
grandma needs to go shluffy!!
sometimes with all the faith I have - I question what goes on - who gets the shit - who gets the gold! - who shall live and who shall die - the liturgy is direct, yet harsh. My rabbi just said last week - look how many people come to shul after a loss - they all of a sudden come back - recognize their spirituality - their core essence - the "inner" jew - remember Kaddish is not for the dead - it's for the living - !
We know that hashem does exist because he made wine and beer!
nite nite
grandma needs to go shluffy!!
Kinda lonely - how is anyone going to read this!
Well it's well into the week and not a soul has seen my blog - I wrote the higher authority and have not gotten any divine intervention re: how does this blog get read -??
Nice week, saw the kiddies, visited across the river - always a fun roadtrip
Getting ready for the High Holidays - really should be Holydays - they are awesome by definition. No other time of the yr is so soul moving - passover is meaningful and shavuout, chanukah, joyous, etc. But the Rosh and the Yom are just the top of the mountain! As I age, the awe of Judaism, the spiritual system that has the advantages of a lifetime of therapy just built right in - the font of spiritual refinement - growing growing gone!
It is truly correct is is "schvere to zain a yid" - it is hard to be a jew - it comes with many, many challenges and privileges - like the US bill of rights and the constitution - rights, privileges and responsibilities.
Nice that I love to ramble
Anyone home - let's here it from the diaspora and the galut!!
happy thurs
grammie
Nice week, saw the kiddies, visited across the river - always a fun roadtrip
Getting ready for the High Holidays - really should be Holydays - they are awesome by definition. No other time of the yr is so soul moving - passover is meaningful and shavuout, chanukah, joyous, etc. But the Rosh and the Yom are just the top of the mountain! As I age, the awe of Judaism, the spiritual system that has the advantages of a lifetime of therapy just built right in - the font of spiritual refinement - growing growing gone!
It is truly correct is is "schvere to zain a yid" - it is hard to be a jew - it comes with many, many challenges and privileges - like the US bill of rights and the constitution - rights, privileges and responsibilities.
Nice that I love to ramble
Anyone home - let's here it from the diaspora and the galut!!
happy thurs
grammie
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Anyone there?
Feeling sort of neglected - maybe the entire heimish crowd out in cyberspace is observing Tish B'Av! - I getting my feet wet with signing on- posting, etc. interesting concept - it's nice - jews like to read, write & learn - I've read some blogs re: too many babies, poop, women feeling less than a baby factory, the stringent laws, etc. tzineeut , etc. I always ? - because if we learned all this stuff when we were 4 - had blinders on - we wouldn't ? - however, if you grew up not frum and gradually took this stuff on - there's a difference. I recently was told that hashem made women different from men, we have different obligations, we are wired more emotionally than them, have certain advantages, etc. I always wondered - why a man gets up in am and thanks hashem for not being a woman - think about it! from the frum male perspective, is he happy to be a man, are we less than men? , wow a man is actually grateful that he is not a woman - look at it this way - bearing children, having "women's intutition", are we as species really special??
Growing up I sort of felt that the very frum were very sexist, etc. women phobic, however, as I get older I see the place of women is different- their case is that they respect women for their role here on earth re: hashem's plan, rules apply for family purity, make sex and desire even more heightened by literally staying away during "unclean" times, - it all sounds good on paper, but, yet, how come according to both the jewish and secular press, the unhappiness and divorce rate among the frum crowd is slowly growing. I have always believed in balance, our whole lives are taken up with coming to terms with extremes in all areas, you have to carve out what works for you and adjust, adapt when the scales tip. I',m a Libra! It's been this way for 57 yrs!
So how's by U - somewhere - someone - respect your elders - altebubbe will give u a squeeze for a reply or a patch for ignoring me.
Growing up I sort of felt that the very frum were very sexist, etc. women phobic, however, as I get older I see the place of women is different- their case is that they respect women for their role here on earth re: hashem's plan, rules apply for family purity, make sex and desire even more heightened by literally staying away during "unclean" times, - it all sounds good on paper, but, yet, how come according to both the jewish and secular press, the unhappiness and divorce rate among the frum crowd is slowly growing. I have always believed in balance, our whole lives are taken up with coming to terms with extremes in all areas, you have to carve out what works for you and adjust, adapt when the scales tip. I',m a Libra! It's been this way for 57 yrs!
So how's by U - somewhere - someone - respect your elders - altebubbe will give u a squeeze for a reply or a patch for ignoring me.
Monday, July 26, 2004
First Time
LI grandma sits behind mechitza for 1st time 1 1/2 yrs ago after being in airplane 9/11 - lots of jewish guilt and extistential questioning re: why am i here? Purpose, etc. - heard voice of Hashem, etc. - it's history!!
